hey whats up? nothing to much here... just this brad shit... i mean everyday i am finding out more and more... and it jsut keeps pissing me off more and more... but you know what i found out tonight... nickis not that bad of a person... i mean the reason why she was being a bitch to me was cause her and brad have been dating the whole time me and him were talking... so yeah... how nice is that... and she thinks i hate her i dont have a reason to hate her... i found that out tonight to... me and her are cool for now... i really dont care what happens with her and brad... really i hope for the best cause i bet if they dont get back together it is going to be very hard for brad to find a girl cause i am going to let everyone know that he thinks he a pimp and to watch out... and i bet nicki will do the same thing and he will be out of a life... well one that any kinda of girl wants to get into... so yeah... brad you fucked up... and you know it... you are hearing it from me and nicki... yeah... well anyways i hope you have a nice life... and i hope you both can get you shit straight because that is your only chance..

love you all

Jen

damn... guess what????? forest is going to be coming very soon... i cant wait... i mean i really miss him... he never once did anything to me like brad and that is what i love about him so much... but yeah... i am just counting down the days... and it wont be long... he moves here in august but he is coming to look for places to live when he comes at the end of this month... and i hope everything is going to be perfect when he gets her like it was before he moved from germany... but my luck it will be all fucked up like always... but hey i am going to let you go cause i need to get off of here... but i love you all and miss you all so very much...

Jen

hey... whats up? omg itrs been awhile... well not that long but awhile... well anyways theres a bunch of shit happening in my life right now... brads little girlfriend emailed me... and was like "so, you and brad dated?? interesting..." yeah... i almost shit my pants when i read that... i mean really is it any of anyones business what i am doing... or who i am dating... or who i dated... come the fuck on get a life and get the fuck out of mine... well today i went on brads girlfriends page (nicki) and i read her journal entry and i found out that they will be dating for 8 months soon... how sweet... and in the entry she said something about "Miss Jennifer" fuck that bitch... fuck her and the horse she came in on... hell no she needs to leave me out of her mouth... shit... i could care less if brad and her have been together for the last 10 years... he can have friends... and i am one of them... but there is something i do care about... i am going to  write a letter to brad in my journal and and tell him everything i want him to know...

brad, your an ass hole... the biggest ass hole i have ever met... i mean for real you keep telling me this this and that... and i keep believing you and i have no idea why... you told me that you and nicki were over... she doesnt think so... cause she has told everyone on myspace and everywhere else... that its about to be 8 months for you all... hell no... brad i dont even want to be your friend anymore... you are full of lies... you are going to tell me one thing and her another... see you tried to be a pimp and pimp 2 girls at once... let me tell you... u fucked up... let me give you a hint for next time... let one of the girls know... and if not then make sure that they both will never find out... cause what i should do is re-write nicki and be like i just lied to you and brad and i ......

ok i have to finish later finishline just called me in... be back on later tonight to finish...

and be like brad and i did talk... we were kinda sorta dating... and what not... but hey i am not going to be a bitch and fuck your life up anymore then what it is already... i mean for real did you think that it was going to be all perfect and you were just going to be dating nicki and be all in love with her... and then just be "talking" to me on the side  i mean come on now... but now i know why you were all up her ass... it was cause you were still together... and i just didnt see it... i mean how fucking stupid could i have been... but you know what its ok... cause i can deal with the fact i got played... yeah its kinda funny really... i have never been played before and now i know how it feels... i mean really it kinda pisses me off... but then i am like who cares... but what pisses me off is that you couldnt have played me with some girl that was prettier then me or even nicer then i am... the nicer thing would not have been a hard thing to do... shit i am not that pretty either so i mean why would you play me with her...? thats what i want to know... shit if you would have told me from the begining that you were still with her... and that you just wanted to hang out with me and what not i would have been fine with that but nope... i keep telling myself it is ok... not to worry about it... but its not ok...  and i know that... i hope someday you get played like that... and i wish it hurts you 1000 times as bad as it did me... i mean i hope that you love this girl and everything and i hope its lasts for like a year then you find out that you have been played... yeah thats mean of me to say... but thats how much i hate you right about now... i mean you lied to me every time i have ever asked you... i asked you all the time if nicki knew and you told me over and over again she did... and then you even told me that you told her... and you didnt... and you told me that yesterday... thats why when you called me i was like fuck you good bye... but yeah... and you know what else i think is fucked up... that the only time you all me is when its something important for you... not just to be like hey jen whats up? how was your day? hell no... you call me to tell me hey jen will you please lie to the love of my life and tell her that i didnt play her... damn i wonder if me and you were still talking would you have asked me that question... dude i would have came to your house the minute you said that and beat the fuck out of you... then told you to kiss my ass... and i would have not lied to her... then you would have had to go around school telling everyone that a girl gave you 2 black eyes and a broken nose... that would have been funny... but lets just say thank god that didnt happen for your sake... damn... there is so much more i want to say but its just not coming out so when i get the words right i will write you again...

i also want you to know... that there is no hard feeling... yeah you pissed me off... but all i have to say is that its your loss not mine... so yeah if you still want to be friends then we can be but if not then thats cool too... but at work we are just going to act like nothings wrong...

i love you all... sorry that you had to read all that... and what not... but yeah... bye...

holla at chu gurl

Jen

Hey... whats up? nothing to much here... ok let me tell you how my week has been... well... wednesday we left for cincinnati... thrusday was the funeral... it was a long day of crying... yeah... then friday i woke up and went to papas and chilled over there all day... and all night... it was chelsey, rj, andy, patrick, me... papa was there a little... kelly and jamie were there and matt too... yeah... it was a full house... well that night andy, patrick and i left for a little while... and then when we came back i was high as i dont even know... then yeah... we all chilled and fell asleep... let me tell you all something... patricks bed was so great... there are no words for his bed... but i told him i was going to steal it... i hadnt slept that good in i dont even know how long... well then saturday... came... and we were all hanging out at the house... i went home in the morning... and i was suppose to leave saturday but we didnt... so yeah... well anyways saturday night came along... chelsey and i were all cute and ready to party... and thats what we did... we went to RJs and drank a shit load of shit... and then i smoked my meal... lol and i took a pill... so yeah... i was feeling to damn good that night... and there were like 6 or 7 guys there... yeah... some of them were cute... lol... anyways that was the night i broke up with brad... yeah i left him a voice mail... cause i kept calling him... and calling him... and he wouldnt answer... and i finially got sick of calling and was like fuck this... so yeah... i dont know... i probably wouldnt have done that if i wasnt so fucked up... but i think that needed to happen anyways... like we never really talked never saw each other... and yeah... i was always with other guys and he was always with nicki... and yeah... i dont trust him... i really dont... i tried to... but i cant... so yeah... well anyways... and now that i am SINGLE... i am going to go out and have a bunch of fun... and be me... and yeah... on thursday i am going to the movies with dustin... how fun... lol... this time i am going to watch the movie... lol... but yeah... anyways i have to go... talk to you all later... much love
holla at chu gurl...

-Jen-